I just completed the second of two weekends at an experiential training that could best be described as an emotional and psychological healing boot camp. While at the training, I was given the opportunity to basically see my naked soul in a mirror and process all that I saw. It was intense, raw, unconventional, vulnerable, hard, and incredibly healing. After just the first weekend, I described to Val that it felt like my soul was unraveling…it felt like a really good and necessary unraveling…all kinds of false paradigms that I’ve lived under throughout my life coming undone...and while good and necessary, it still felt like an unraveling. And unravelings are never easy.
I had signed up for this experiential training because I knew someone who had been through it and I had seen her truly change…I had seen her become freer and more confident. I saw my friend embrace and run with her God-given design in a way that I hadn’t quite seen so fully expressed in her until this point in her life. I also have this dream of seeing women know their own story and become reconnected to their God-given design, so I signed up for this training just so I could know whether or not I could, in good conscience, recommend it to others as a tool of sorts toward that dream of mine. I had no idea how God would actually use it to overhaul me.
The first weekend truly let me see myself in a crystal clear mirror. My soul. My emotions. My patterns. My false paradigms. My struggles. My strengths. Me. In a mirror. The first weekend also gave me some new tools to incorporate into my life as I saw these things about myself. Over the month in between the two trainings, as I connected with God over these false paradigms, He began to unwind many of them. Some of these false paradigms I’ve been living under for as long as I can remember, while others had come into play as recent as four years ago. I began taking them one at a time, praying over the specific one, asking God where it came from, asking Him for His truth over that paradigm, and ultimately asking Him to heal and reset what was false into what is true.
As I got closer and closer to the second weekend, God begin pulling forward memories that I hadn’t thought of for years. I knew He wanted me to pay attention, to find themes, to remember where some of my patterns and beliefs began. So, I did. I engaged with Him, because this process was way outside my comfort zone and I needed to know that it was Him walking me through every step of the way. In fact, this training was so outside my comfort zone, so incredibly vulnerable that I considered not going to the second weekend. But after some encouragement from my friend, and a deep sense inside myself that I needed to see this process through to the end, I went to the second weekend.
Now on the other side of that second weekend, I feel like I have been given an incredible gift to have been able to go through this training. God used this training to bring me face to face with some things I desperately needed to let go. And at the same time, He used it to call me forward and reclaim some of the things I had lost along the way amidst life’s struggles. In fact, over the course of the last few years due to some deep wounding, I had stopped trusting. The love and support I felt through this training, combined with the power of the Holy Spirit, dismantled that wall. In the rawness of soul, facing myself as I truly am, as I engaged with God throughout the experience, I found myself reconnected with my design and realigned with who God made me to be. There is nothing like being reacquainted with who you truly are, the false paradigms unraveling, your soul reawakened, your whole self reengaged.
I feel like I am a stronger, more peaceful, more present mom…more self aware, more able to find my calm in the chaos than ever before…and more able to really connect with my kids. I also feel like I’ve got a new tenderness and love for Val now, too. Honestly, I feel like I’m a revived woman. Not just going through the motions of life, carrying all my responsibilities, trying so hard to do a good job, but breathing, loving, present, me.
After experiencing such a profound impact through this training, I wanted to tell you about it! This training is for anyone, whatever your background…whether it be traumatic or not. It’s for men, women, young, not as young…anyone. However, this training isn’t for everyone at this very moment…it would be something you would have to want to do. I will tell you this: if you come to a place where you want to see yourself honestly and be realigned with who God designed you to be, this experience is precisely what you want. The training itself is definitely unconventional, yet it is this very characteristic that makes it so effective. The best way I could describe the training is that it is like a counseling session on steroids in a group setting done through active learning experiences, direct teaching, open sharing, and personal processing. I will also tell you that it is possible that there could be parts of the training you may not agree on a philosophical or theological level. As you face those, discern those for what they are without letting them negate the training all together. If you can do that, this experience could be one of the best tools you ever gain in life.
Also, while the training is led by Christians, the training itself is not a faith-focused training per se. In fact, the training primarily deals with emotional and psychological healing…and it is up to each participant to take it to the spiritual level if he or she so desires. For me, because I chose to engage the training on a spiritual level, I experienced a powerful and personal spiritual healing connected to my emotional and psychological experience. I believe that the deepest healing and lasting change will come when you engage your spirit with the Spirit allowing Jesus to do the work of truly changing you. However, this is still a phenomenal and powerful experience simply at the emotional and psychological levels!
If after reading all this, you feel a longing in your heart for this kind of shift in your own life, I’d encourage you to check out The Journey Training website (click here). If you decided to go through this training, you would ideally sign up for “Threshold” and the “Crossroads” that follows it the very next month so that you go through the experience with mostly the same group of people. If you have any questions or just want to know more, please contact me (click here). While I’m not personally affiliated with The Journey Training, I’d be happy to answer whatever I can from my own experience!
If you ever do sign up to go through this training, please let me know (click here), I’d like to be as much of an emotional support through your process as I am able.
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